These Things:

They're so good.
You just don't know.
They're just that good.

They're like little bits & pieces of things I feel like I've been missing. Little words & doozies that make my day a little brighter.. These little bits & pieces from everyone they're so great. I love them so much.

Mew?!:

I am child like & impatient.
I try to know things I'm not meant to understand.
I am easily flustered & totally apt to never supress it.
I love all the frivolous things people fail to notice.
I need to believe that one day I'll be totally & completely happy.

Ooh my, my.:

I am the strong hand.
I am the way that no one understood.
I am the blind spot failed to be noticed.
I am many things & I've failed to be many things.

There is the mere coincidence in the fact that I most efficiently failed to put a certain amount of judgment on decisions I most honestly should have reconsidered. It's okay though. My life as of current is a lesson well learnt & I'm gradually compensating for my most many bad ideas.

I've a plan in the making & goals that I will attain. As most would deam odd & unattainable at my age, I regard as what I need & will have.

Ooh noes.:

I've got a sweet tune cheering me on & a grin like no other.

I think there's a certain irony in the consistency of the number one person in my life & the real number one person in my life.

The fact that my certain eminant downfall has recently occured & the emotion of total distraught & rock bottom has obtained a stronghold on everything that seems to be me at this very moment--she's feeling no differently. The one person besides myself, I would try & give the world too & I can't seem to help.

HELPLESS.

Last night Chris called me out on my most recent attitude. Apparently I've never seemed so out of it in... Ever. My whole situation is far beyond the concept of a "wreck." I'm totally exhausted & I officially feel like I've been pulled in so many directions by everyone else that, I don't really know what I want for myself. I know that small idea of what I always wanted is still out there lingering.. But I'm just so tired. Literally, I'm mentally incapacitated--Emotionally done.

So now.. It's my time to shine & oh boy! I'm going to shine. I'm making plans that I refuse to let anyone betray, most especially myself. Goals that are attainable & logical & will in the end, help me reach my point of satisfaction & gratification.

In the mean time, I'll stop putting up a facade of happiness & actually try to be happy.

Dynamite!:

Aside from my concrete inhibitions--I really wish I could go home & see the one person in my life that I know would never turn their back on me & would love me no matter what. I'm liable to regress without the persistent approval & disapproval of the one person in my life I know I'll always be inapt to love.

I love my Jennifer Marie Hedges & if I had my way, we'd happily grow old together discussing nonsense with a life long mastery of sarcasm.

I do of course, mean this in the most platonic loving way possible.


Otherwise, Happy Thanksgiving--I hope it's well for everyone despite the fact that it's been overturned & ignored for Christmas advertisment & commercialism.

Coin Operated Notions:

Aside from my fairly obvious lack of consideration and/or better known as "indifference"--I've been compelled to laugh at this one incredibly entertaining line that will at no point in my life play a role other than totally & completely humored: "Teh Herp Has NO Remedy."

&& that's all I've got to say about that.

I like how music puts my emotions out better then I do.

Music's an indispensable means to improving my mood no matter what.

WHERE'S THE PARTY AT?!:

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHA. end.

I'll Believe in Anything:

Give me your eyes
I need sunshine
Give me your eyes
I need sunshine
Your blood
Your bones
Your voice
and your ghost

We've both been very brave
Walk around with both legs
Fight the scary day
We both pull the tricks out of our sleeves

but I'll believe in anything
and you'll believe in anything
said I'll believe in anything
and you'll believe in anything

If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd share a life and you'd share a life
If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd share a life and you'd share a life
If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd take you where nobody knows you
And nobody gives a damn
said nobody knows you
and nobody gives a damn

and I could take another hit for you
and I could take away your trips from you
and I could take away the salt from your eyes
and take away the spitting salt in you
and I could give you my apologies
by handing over my neologies
and I could take away the shaking knees
and I could give you all the olive trees
oh look at the trees and look at my face and look at a place far away from here

Give me your eyes
I need sunshine
Give me your eyes
I need sunshine
Your blood
Your bones
Your voice
and your ghost

We've both been very brave
Walk around with both legs
Fight the scary day
We both pull the tricks out of our sleeves

but I'll believe in anything
and you'll believe in anything

If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd share a life and you'd share a life
If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd share a life and you'd share a life
If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd take you where nobody knows you
And nobody gives a damn
I said nobody knows you
and nobody gives a damn
I said nobody knows you
and nobody gives a damn either way
About your blood
your bones
your voice
and ghost
because nobody knows you
and nobody gives a damn either way

and now I'll believe in anything

"Albert Camus wrote that the only serious question is whether to kill yourself or not. Tom Robbins wrote that the only serious question is whether time has a beginning and end. Camus clearly got up on the wrongside of the bed, and Robbins must have forgotten to set the alarm. There *is* only one serious question. And that is: Who knows how to make love stay? Answer me that and i'll tell you whether or not to kill yourself. Answer me that and I will ease your mind about the beginning and the end of time. Answer me that and I will reveal to you the purpose of the moon." - Tom Robbins, 'Still Life With Woodpecker'

heeeeeeeeeY! GET SOME!!!!!!!

ang said bye (8:43:10 PM): Hrmmm............ So dudes are such betty's.
ang said bye (8:43:18 PM): I should have used that one on fratface!
ang said bye (8:43:19 PM): omg.
ussrorcssr (8:43:19 PM): I'm being passive-aggressive mean tonight at practice if he is there
ussrorcssr (8:43:22 PM): HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
ang said bye (8:43:28 PM): lawl.
ussrorcssr (8:43:36 PM): I made my character name "There Their They're Get it"
ang said bye (8:43:56 PM): what's that suppost to mean?
ang said bye (8:43:59 PM): hahahahaha.
ussrorcssr (8:44:46 PM): are friendship is suppost to be importanT!!
ang said bye (8:45:14 PM): our you sure it's suppost to be that importanT?!
ussrorcssr (8:45:57 PM): HeeeeeY!
ussrorcssr (8:46:02 PM): ROFL
ussrorcssr (8:46:07 PM): I'm loling so hard
ang said bye (8:46:14 PM): Hahahahahaha.
ang said bye (8:46:18 PM): ruh roh!
ang said bye (8:46:24 PM): GET SOME!!!!!!!
ussrorcssr (8:47:09 PM): HeeeeeeeeeeY!
ang said bye (8:47:27 PM): PWNED!
ussrorcssr (8:47:30 PM): whatca doin?
ussrorcssr (8:47:34 PM): "whatca" WTF IS THAT SHIT
ang said bye (8:47:42 PM): hahahahahahahaha
ussrorcssr (8:47:42 PM): whatca doin?
ang said bye (8:47:47 PM): whatca doin?!
ussrorcssr (8:47:53 PM): plaaaaaaaaaaaaaying GAYLO
ang said bye (8:48:10 PM): heeeeeeeeeeeeeeY
ussrorcssr (8:48:46 PM): GET SOME!!!!!!
ussrorcssr (8:48:48 PM): raaaaaaPe
ang said bye (8:48:59 PM): PWNED!!!!
ang said bye (8:49:16 PM): i don't even know what that's suppost to mean.
ang said bye (8:49:21 PM): GET SOME?!
ang said bye (8:49:22 PM): srsly.
ussrorcssr (8:49:25 PM): LOL
ang said bye (8:51:49 PM): OH SHIT! GET SOME!
ang said bye (8:51:56 PM): GET AT ME!!!!!!!!!!
ang said bye (8:52:01 PM): that's the one i forgot.
ussrorcssr (8:52:08 PM): LOL
ussrorcssr (8:52:10 PM): SERIOUSLY
ussrorcssr (8:52:12 PM): get at me!!
ussrorcssr (8:52:19 PM): HeeeeeeeeeeeY
ussrorcssr (8:52:21 PM): GET WRECKED
ang said bye (8:52:42 PM): does his brain ever turn off for games and/or gamer lingo.
ang said bye (8:52:42 PM): srsly.
ussrorcssr (8:53:06 PM): I don't think his brain is ever really on, Ang
ang said bye (8:53:42 PM): LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!! GET SOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ussrorcssr (8:54:28 PM): raaaaaPe!!
ang said bye (8:54:47 PM): what's the deal with the rancom capitalized letter?
ang said bye (8:54:49 PM): like srsly?
ang said bye (8:54:57 PM): *random
ussrorcssr (8:56:19 PM): I have no idea
ang said bye (8:56:57 PM): like i distinctly remember that.
ussrorcssr (8:57:02 PM): Me too
ang said bye (8:57:04 PM): i was always like? wtf is that for?!
ussrorcssr (8:57:06 PM): I never quite understood
ang said bye (8:57:35 PM): Like who does that?!
ussrorcssr (8:57:48 PM): Fratties
ang said bye (8:58:10 PM): apparently. he did seem pretty fratish, i think. i don't even remember what he looks like. :\
ang said bye (8:58:13 PM): lol.
ussrorcssr (8:58:33 PM): Its not important
ussrorcssr (8:58:36 PM): I'm bloated
ussrorcssr (8:58:37 PM): Tummy hurts bad
ang said bye (8:58:46 PM): tums!
ang said bye (9:00:35 PM): i still can't believe crapteri got married.
ussrorcssr (9:04:50 PM): LOL i know
ang said bye (9:05:10 PM): soooo weird.
ang said bye (9:51:27 PM): Blaaaaaaaaaaah.
ussrorcssr (9:57:18 PM): so fat

Auto Response from ang said bye (9:57:19 PM):
GET SOME!!! GET WRECKED!!! GET AT ME!!! PWNED!!!

ussrorcssr (9:57:23 PM): HAHAHAHAHHA
ussrorcssr (9:57:27 PM): raaaaaaaPe!
ang said bye (9:57:54 PM): omg!!!!!!!!! that's one I forgot!!!!!!!!!!

Auto Response from ussrorcssr (9:57:53 PM):
raaaaaaaPe! GET SOME!!! ARE LOVE IS A GOOD LOVE!

ussrorcssr (9:57:53 PM): look at my away message
ang said bye (9:57:58 PM): yesssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ussrorcssr (9:57:59 PM): hahaha
ang said bye (9:58:04 PM): LMFAO
ang said bye (9:58:09 PM): LOL'ing.
ang said bye (9:58:14 PM): oooho snap yo!
ang said bye (9:58:32 PM): hahaha, brb.
ang said bye (10:00:44 PM): That's going to be my away msg for forever.

Auto Response from ussrorcssr (10:00:43 PM):
raaaaaaaPe! GET SOME!!! ARE LOVE IS A GOOD LOVE!

ussrorcssr (10:01:13 PM): ahaha

Auto Response from ang said bye (10:01:15 PM):
GET SOME!!! GET WRECKED!!! GET AT ME!!! PWNED!!!

ussrorcssr (10:03:26 PM): "HeeeeeeeY"
ussrorcssr (10:03:30 PM): "Whatca doin?"
ussrorcssr (10:03:31 PM): Nah
ang said bye (10:03:44 PM): heeeeeeeeeeY!!!!!!!!!
ussrorcssr (10:03:49 PM): I'll be all
ussrorcssr (10:03:54 PM): HeeeeeY!!!!!!!!!!
ussrorcssr (10:03:58 PM): whatca doing
ussrorcssr (10:04:01 PM): raaaaaPe
ang said bye (10:04:07 PM): GET SOME!
ang said bye (10:04:17 PM): PWNED!!!!!!!!!
ang said bye (10:04:19 PM): wtf is get some?
ang said bye (10:04:23 PM): or get at me?
ussrorcssr (10:04:25 PM): GET AT ME!!!!!
ussrorcssr (10:04:37 PM): I dont know what it is
ang said bye (10:04:43 PM): ionno either.
ussrorcssr (10:04:46 PM): Its something frat boys say I guess
ang said bye (10:04:55 PM): i guess so.
ang said bye (10:05:03 PM): i'm going to urban dictionary to find out.
ussrorcssr (10:05:31 PM): encyclopedia dramatica
ang said bye (10:05:48 PM): get at me 14 up, 91 down Get excited. Become excited. "Will you be attending the match tomorrow?" "Heck yes. Get at me."
ussrorcssr (10:05:56 PM): Uh
ussrorcssr (10:06:01 PM): Thats homo
ussrorcssr (10:06:10 PM): FRAAAAT
ang said bye (10:06:33 PM): get some 162 up, 39 down Score some booty. Hey, did u get some or not? You were in there for like an hour!
ussrorcssr (10:08:08 PM): GET SOOOOME
ussrorcssr (10:08:13 PM): I guess it means IM AWESOME or some gay
ussrorcssr (10:08:33 PM): I don't even give a flying fuck
ussrorcssr (10:08:34 PM): I'm cold
ussrorcssr (10:08:53 PM): Get Sum
ussrorcssr (10:08:57 PM): MATH JOKE LOL
ang said bye (10:09:50 PM): hahahahahahaha.
ang said bye (10:09:54 PM): get wrecked.
ang said bye (10:10:00 PM): donno what that means either.
ussrorcssr (10:20:41 PM): it means get destroyed in a video game
ussrorcssr (10:20:42 PM): like get owned
ang said bye (10:20:56 PM): oooh, i see.
ussrorcssr (10:21:19 PM): yeah
ussrorcssr (10:21:24 PM): Vince says it a lot
ussrorcssr (10:21:28 PM): I say 'get raped' a lot
ang said bye (10:21:48 PM): yeah, i say get owned.
ang said bye (10:33:03 PM): dust it off & jerk it.

Auto Response from ussrorcssr (10:33:02 PM):
raaaaaaaPe! GET SOME!!! ARE LOVE IS A GOOD LOVE!

ussrorcssr (10:43:15 PM): yesss ma'am
ang said bye (10:43:33 PM): heeeY!
ussrorcssr (10:43:49 PM): HeeeeeeeY!
ussrorcssr (10:43:56 PM): whatca doing
ang said bye (10:44:09 PM): suppost to be looking for a joB.
ussrorcssr (10:44:32 PM): GET AT ME
ang said bye (10:44:51 PM): GET SOME
ang said bye (10:45:06 PM): haha, please send me this conversation. I need it to laugh at later.ussrorcssr (10:45:16 PM): hahahaha okay
ussrorcssr (10:45:17 PM): I'll post it

::

I roll the window down
And then begin to breathe in
The darkest country road
And the strong scent of evergreen
From the passenger seat as you are driving me home.

Then looking upwards
I strain my eyes and try
To tell the difference between shooting stars and satellites
From the passenger seat as you are driving me home.

"Do they collide?"
I ask and you smile.
With my feet on the dash
The world doesn't matter.

When you feel embarrassed then I'll be your pride
When you need directions then I'll be the guide
For all time.
For all time.

A Dream:

Yeah, so it's one that bugs me and as it goes:

Me & a handful of friends are on this plane flying everywhere & it's like an AI sort of plane that flies & lands on its own.

So we're flying and landing and flying and landing over and over again--until we hit this short landing pad with a wall. The front portion of the plane where two friends & myself were at gets crushed.

Of course we don't die, but the plane does pull away & begins flying in rampaging circles & everyone screams & cries & does not know what to do. So I see a friend jump out & so I just out. & it's like the plane strikes me & keeps going & I'm watching myself dead--completely serene. Not one flaw from being hit by a crazed plane. Well it's like a double take but with a different death from jumping out of the plane at a different point. Same result.

So my friend & I who died are these soul/spirit things just walking around going from place to place discussing things that happened & wondering what happens next. We reminicise about all the things that we had & that we'll never be able to see again & so we go to see our friends & everyone else who made it one last time.

So we're sitting there laughing about it all when each individual slowly turns towards us & seems to think something's there, but they're unsure & they conclude that it's us. & it's like trying to make a wall say "hello." They kept on and on trying their best to see & hear us & so then we leave. We're sitting in this school sort of place & my friend and I are talking & I begin crying because of so many things I've got to leave & she looks & just says, "it's time to go now, no need for that." & so to compensate for my fears, my dead self imagines that where I'll be will be what I've always wanted & that I'll be able to make up all my friends & family being there.

Stupid dream. Bugs the shit out of me.

I've No Understanding

Of any small or large subject.
I fail to understand.
I fail to comprehend.
I over estimate.
I under estimate.
I re-think too tediously.
I concern to little.

And Sometimes,

You just want all those wonderful things that make you smile each day to stay there and be that way always.

It doesn't work that way though. It's always a matter of accepting what's good and what's bad. Sadly, sometimes it's so bad, it hurts every bone in your body. It feels like complete destruction. You just want to lay in bed and sulk to sad music and never emerge from it.

Please remember though, all those bad things will go away, or that by some magical means, you'll learn to accept them and move on with yourself. You'll remember all those happy moments you had and find a new way to experience them.

The only difference is, the next time around--you'll know how to appreciate them more & you'll understand better why they were just so important.

You'll always know that the bad things make the good ones so much better. Just remember, that even though you know you did nothing to deserve this, it happens none-the-less and that accepting terrible things is the most difficult thing you'll ever come across. I won't say anything cliche, honestly I just think they're a little overrated.

On Teleporters & Cats:

ang said bye (10:45:03 PM): maybe you should get a REAL phone plan.
Auto Response from wandering00eyes (10:45:03 PM): I'm not here right now
wandering00eyes returned at 10:45:09 PM.
wandering00eyes (10:45:59 PM): maybe I should make more money, too... oh and get a fancy car... and a rocket ship!
Auto Response from ang said bye (10:45:59 PM): CA bound as of Sept. 18th.
ang said bye (10:46:10 PM): i'm buying a teleporter.
ang said bye (10:46:15 PM): screw cars & rocket ships.
wandering00eyes (10:46:39 PM): haha
wandering00eyes (10:46:56 PM): no cuz all you'll be using it for is trying to teleport my cat
ang said bye (10:47:23 PM): hey, both cats. it'll be a lot easier then.
wandering00eyes (10:48:05 PM): noooooo
ang said bye (10:48:21 PM): yess!
wandering00eyes (10:49:43 PM): what if they get mixed together?
ang said bye (10:50:04 PM): what if all three of us get mixed together.
ang said bye (10:50:06 PM): oh cool.
wandering00eyes (10:50:14 PM): yikes
ang said bye (10:50:14 PM): i'd have three heads & two of them would be cats.
ang said bye (10:50:17 PM): & two tales.
ang said bye (10:50:18 PM): sweet.
wandering00eyes (10:50:20 PM): hahhahahaa
wandering00eyes (10:50:40 PM): and you'd have an unsightly body hair problem
ang said bye (10:50:54 PM): ewwwwwwie.

My Life is a Conversation:

ang said bye (11:45:18 PM): i'll write you really shitty sappy love letters.
ang said bye (11:45:42 PM): i'll talk about how i love your boobs first thing in the morning & the fact that you only believe in showering every so often.
ang said bye (11:45:47 PM): you know, all the good stuffs.
flapjackdirty (11:45:57 PM): hahahahahaha
flapjackdirty (11:45:58 PM): PLEASE DO
ang said bye (11:46:04 PM): Oh, I will.
ang said bye (11:46:06 PM): Believe me.
ang said bye (11:46:12 PM): You'll be receiving some mail.
flapjackdirty (11:46:19 PM): YES HOT I CAME ALL OVER
ang said bye (11:46:30 PM): God, I love when you talk dirty.
flapjackdirty (11:47:18 PM): FILTH
flapjackdirty (11:47:20 PM): MUD
flapjackdirty (11:47:23 PM): DUST BuNNIES
flapjackdirty (11:47:28 PM): do i get you hot?
ang said bye (11:47:29 PM): Keep on!
ang said bye (11:47:36 PM): I've got a chubby.
flapjackdirty (11:47:43 PM): STDS ON A TOILET SEAT
ang said bye (11:48:04 PM): Oh no! I'm a full fledged 3 inches now.
ang said bye (11:48:13 PM): Thanks for the full on erection.
flapjackdirty (11:48:46 PM): aww yeahh
flapjackdirty (11:48:48 PM): aids
ang said bye (11:49:00 PM): oh shit, i just came.
ang said bye (11:49:02 PM): thanks baby.
flapjackdirty (11:49:11 PM): i just ate it and its making my hair and eyebrows stiff but i won't shower
flapjackdirty (11:49:15 PM): because i'm a dirty filthy whore
ang said bye (11:49:34 PM): SDF;JKLA
ang said bye (11:49:48 PM): HHHHHHHAAAAAAAHAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHHHHHHHHHHHH

On Gas:

ussrorcssr (12:11:04 PM): I have gas
ussrorcssr (12:11:09 PM): Tsss
ang said bye (12:11:11 PM): again?!
ussrorcssr (12:11:13 PM): Yeah
ang said bye (12:11:15 PM): tssssssssssssssssss
ussrorcssr (12:11:17 PM): withdrawals seem to include gas
ussrorcssr (12:11:20 PM): I keep tooting
ang said bye (12:11:24 PM): hahaha.
ussrorcssr (12:11:58 PM): tss tss
ang said bye (12:12:14 PM): tsss ssss tsss sssssssst.
ussrorcssr (12:12:29 PM): *lights a candle for additional smell reduction*
ang said bye (12:12:52 PM): *flashes lighter under cassie's butt for explosion*
ussrorcssr (12:13:22 PM): *massive mushroom cloud*
ang said bye (12:13:50 PM): *falls back & blacks out*
ussrorcssr (12:14:12 PM): *farts in face to wake her up*
ang said bye (12:14:19 PM): *dies*
ussrorcssr (12:14:26 PM): ... *sweeps her under rug*
ussrorcssr (12:14:35 PM): tssssssssssss
ussrorcssr (12:14:36 PM): tss
ang said bye (12:14:40 PM): tsssss
ang said bye (12:14:43 PM): ts
ang said bye (12:14:46 PM): roflmfao
ussrorcssr (12:14:53 PM): lol we're ridick
ang said bye (12:15:01 PM): i can't believe you'd sweep me under the rug.
ussrorcssr (12:15:08 PM): Its a cute rug
ussrorcssr (12:15:13 PM): Its got hello kitty on it
ang said bye (12:15:32 PM): srsly though, you would just let me rot under hello kitty's butt?!
ussrorcssr (12:15:43 PM): Would you rather me stuff you into Vince's butt?
ang said bye (12:16:15 PM): I guess it doesn't matter would it?! I'd just be a dead corpse. Besides necrophiliac--totally against the law.
ussrorcssr (12:17:24 PM): Maybe he'd start being a little tougher
ang said bye (12:18:28 PM): Yeah, my dead corpse in anyone's ass makes them that much tougher.
ussrorcssr (12:18:46 PM): hahahahahaha
ussrorcssr (12:18:50 PM): well, you're more of a man than vince
ang said bye (12:18:53 PM): Hey, lets use angela's dead hand as a masturbation utensil.
ang said bye (12:18:57 PM): Thanks Cass.
ang said bye (12:19:05 PM): I'm so glad I'm usefull when I'm dead too.
ussrorcssr (12:19:14 PM): Hahaha
ussrorcssr (12:19:16 PM): I love you always.
ang said bye (12:19:19 PM): Hahaha, even dead I put him to shame.
ussrorcssr (12:19:21 PM): WHATEVER USING YOUR BOOBS
ang said bye (12:19:22 PM): I love you always too.
ang said bye (12:19:30 PM): HAHAHAHAHA.
ang said bye (12:19:38 PM): Oh great, molested while I'm dead too.
ang said bye (12:19:39 PM): Sweet.
ussrorcssr (12:19:49 PM): hahahaha
ang said bye (12:20:03 PM): I hope I leave you guys with a really fantastic dead fart.
ang said bye (12:20:24 PM): Or maybe I'll poop myself or something. Leave you guys an uber sweet suprise.
ang said bye (12:20:27 PM): tssss
ussrorcssr (12:20:38 PM): hahahahahahahahahahahahaha
ussrorcssr (12:20:40 PM): tss
ang said bye (12:20:48 PM): ts ts tss
ang said bye (12:21:13 PM): I'm going to end every sentence with ts from now on ts.
ussrorcssr (12:21:17 PM): LOL
ang said bye (12:21:22 PM): lolts

Gang Bang: PHD!

ang said bye: i need to learn some sick ghetto slang.
ussrorcssr: me too
ussrorcssr: lets reserarch
ussrorcssr: and our like
ussrorcssr: gang sign
ang said bye: urbandictionary.com
ussrorcssr: will be the shocker with some stuff too
ang said bye: rofl
ussrorcssr: http://www.gangsorus.com/slang.html
ang said bye: dude, are we like southside?
ang said bye: westside?!
ang said bye: northside?!
ussrorcssr: um
ang said bye: eastside?!
ussrorcssr: i'm southside
ussrorcssr: lets be
ang said bye: sweet.
ussrorcssr: blindside
ussrorcssr: hahah
ang said bye: i'm trying to make a b with my hand.
ussrorcssr: hahaha
ussrorcssr: i made a g
ussrorcssr: and a q
ang said bye: lmfao.
ang said bye: i made an s for southside.
ang said bye: lawl.
ussrorcssr: i made the shocker
ussrorcssr: and some sign language for sex
ang said bye: me too.
ussrorcssr: http://www.uic.edu/orgs/kbc/hiphop/slang.htm#alternative_pronunciation
ussrorcssr: there
ussrorcssr: theres some uhh
ussrorcssr: thug language i guess
ang said bye: aight dog.
ang said bye: wait...
ussrorcssr: moo over dere
ang said bye: aight dawg.
ussrorcssr: i got dat
ussrorcssr: i told you dat befo
ang said bye: naah nigga, fo sho.
ussrorcssr: i'm on da flo
Auto response from ang said bye:

ang said bye: axe me a question ho.
ussrorcssr: listen to ma flow
ussrorcssr: kateri is a busta, PAYCE
ang said bye: boi that biatch is hella fugly.
ang said bye: lmfao.
ussrorcssr: youre my bizzle
ang said bye: forizzle.
ang said bye: my nizzle.
ang said bye: *mah nizzle.
ussrorcssr: dude
ussrorcssr: if this is really how gangsters talk
ussrorcssr: thats so buggin
ang said bye: that ain't shizzit, yo.
ussrorcssr: AWW SNAP DAWG
ang said bye: i'm so bent yo.
ussrorcssr: lets get some puntang
ussrorcssr: check out my guns
ussrorcssr: get in my whip
ang said bye: ho you a dime.
ang said bye: lmfao.
ussrorcssr: MAN P.H.D.
ussrorcssr: PIMP HOS DAILY
ang said bye: haha, we're so down.
ang said bye: our gang will be the shit.
ussrorcssr: thats straight
ussrorcssr: koolin' it
ussrorcssr: thats dope nigga
ussrorcssr: MAN STOP BO JANGLIN
ussrorcssr: thats THE SHIT straight kickin'
ussrorcssr: BRURVA
ussrorcssr: "DA BOMB" ROFLMAO HAHA THATS OFF THE HOOK
ussrorcssr: GOD NO WONDER WE HAVE A GANG ISSUE IN THE COUNTRY
ussrorcssr: fucking people are retarded
ussrorcssr: http://www.convictsandcops.com/field.htm
ussrorcssr: GANG BANG
ussrorcssr: in
ussrorcssr: gang bangin

We Call This Love.

aznHIGHclass: ho.
ang said bye: hooker.
aznHIGHclass: skeez.
ang said bye: skank.
aznHIGHclass: betch.
ang said bye: cooter.
aznHIGHclass: cumbucket.
ang said bye: cunttard.
aznHIGHclass: butthole.
ang said bye: douch bag.
aznHIGHclass: douche has an e.
aznHIGHclass: english major.
aznHIGHclass: oooh buurn.
ang said bye: haha, i'm aware of that.
ang said bye: god forbid i have a typo.
ang said bye: slut.
aznHIGHclass: cumguzzler.
ang said bye: ass to mouth lover.
aznHIGHclass: omg. eugenes friend ass to mouthed a girl.
aznHIGHclass: he didnt see anything wrong with it.
ang said bye: NUH?!
aznHIGHclass: YUH!

Oh Yess!!

Little did they know my ass..

Great things come to those who work their butts off.
Happiness is for those that really want it.
Worrying is for the ones that care too much.
Some people are just worth it.

Free, free, free.
Being content is a fathomable idea--
Completely attainable--
Contrary to popular belief.

It's Turbulance.

Just going to sway to the music and act like all of it matters.
Too bad,
None of it matters.

It's just a maze of half used words that never meant anything.

I will be many things.
I will be many things they're not.
I will be many things that will make me happy.
I will be many things that are unconventional.
It's offensive, but so is everyone else.

A good song & a care free mood is all I need.

And Then.

Happiness is just a figment of your imagination.
Don't cry, I know it's sad--but all will be well.
One morning you'll wake up.
When you wake you'll have a revelation.
When you have this revelation, you'll understand.
Your understanding will be this--
Indifference is saddening.Love can be worthless.
Heartless is no right of way
And only you ever mattered to you.
It's okay, it'll be fine.
You might be lucky enough to find someone that makes it all go away.
You might also just be obliged to accept what we're all forced to accept.
Good luck, good luck.
Farewell & Good night.

What We Don't Know.

Won't Hurt Us.

Whatever. That's what breaks our hearts the most.

If the new response suddenly becomes, "I don't know" and/or "I'm over it." There's obviously issues.

Indifference isn't an answer, it's indifference & it doesn't fix things.

BLAAAAH!!

Kenneth.

Women in Love

Love it so far. Of course anything that requires you to legitimately read in-between the lines I can thoroughly enjoy. I should be reading it more, if I did I would have finished it the day I got it. Whatever though. I'm too busy playing video games. Yeah, I'm that awesome.



So another weekend having drinks, playing games, sitting by the pool and enjoying a boat ride. Oh and best of all, I get to sleep in.

She's a killer.
She's a destroyer.
She's destruction.
She's everything.
She's so much more.

B for Boat.

Well I've cancelled my photo shoot in Charleston for the weekend. Oh well.

Otherwise, we'll be on the boat all day with Justin's mom. Boat days are always fun. I guess it's more like weekends are fun since at least one of those days will be a boat day.

I'm going to kill Kenneth. He drives me insane. Little baby cats are supposed to be cute and entertaining, not annoying and worth murdering. I've no patience for things that scrath me. I think I may still love him none-the-less. Whatever though.

The neurotic individual we represent at the office with Munchausen by Proxy keeps calling. She's a complete narcissist that smells horrible. I wish someone could imply that she needs a better laundry detergent for her clothes and an even better bar of soap. I hope they didn't notice the scent during court.

Oh my, my. Oh hell yess! Honey put on that party dress.

I'm tired and not entirely stimulated.

I placed an order today with the book store for, "Women In Love."
Nothing more entertaining then reading some D.H. Lawrence.

I'd discuss my family gossip, but that's only entertaining when I'm discussing it amongst my family. Aside from that, I think it's completely insignificant and partially dull for everyone else.

I had a short but enlightening discussion with a good friend of mine in regards to a certain individual we both mutually know. He writes at the old age of 19. His prerogative is to attempt to swoon every woman he's able to and is most interested in those that aren't impressed with his writing. Personally, with an agreed friend... His writing is horrible and there's no bigger turn on than a girl that has no legitimate interest in him for that very reason. He thinks himself the next Petrarch & I think myself a Golden God. There's nothing more entertaining than an individual in-love with being in love every five minutes and inhumanly convinced that his/her abilities are completely prestine and indulged in perfection. Nothing better, love the person that really believes that they're somewhat charming writing is going to leave its historical mark. Unless he suddenly starts blogging celebrity gossip, his fame will forever revolve around 16 year old boppers. Coooooooooooool. It gives me something to laugh about. Nothing better then having something to laugh about.